Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Meet My Embryos

Aren't they just the cutest embryos you have ever, ever seen?

I think they look like me: lumpy and rotund.





Today I am 10dp3dt (10 days past 3 day transfer), or 13 dpo for you fertile folk. Acceptable testing range...right? If the embabies are behaving themselves, they are already snuggled in for the long haul right now. (fingers crossed!)

So the two week wait neurotic behavior? It Continues. I won't burden you with another time table, but seriously? The whole of my thoughts can be summarized as follows:

Should I test?
I am pregnant.
I am not pregnant.
I have cramps.
Need food now.
Have to pee.
Is it Friday yet?
Is it Monday yet?
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!


My beta isn't until Monday. I want to call and ask if they will do it Saturday or maybe even Friday. But of course, I am afraid to ask. I don't know why I am so afraid of them. As a friend pointed out I am technically a paying customer.

I don't know - there is something about people in the medical profession. They make me feel like I'm 12 again and maybe my mom should be escorting me. I'm always waiting for them to ask me if I want to pick a prize out of the treasure chest for being such a big girl and taking the dildo cam like a champ.

But anyway, I know you already clicked the link and read my Redbook post (If not, here's your second chance: Redbook Post). I'm not much of an early tester. Usually.

I need an official vote:
To test or not to test? Why or why not?

69 comments:

Anonymous said...

OMG, of COURSE you need to POAS..now. Why? Because I am going to go nuts if you don't!

Heather said...

Don't test - it feels so much better to enjoy the hope for a potential BFP.

PJ said...

Laughing at anonymous!

Those are the cutest little embies evah! Clearly there is a diva or a hunk in the making. Or both?

If'n I tell ya to poas, and it's a negative, then you're gonna blame me. If'n I tell ya NOT to poas, and you get aunt flo, you're gonna blame me, (why, I dunno. It just sounds good). Sigh... I don't know what to say. That's helpful, right?

Inner turmoil much?


((((((((Hug))))))))

Anonymous said...

Ditto the PP, test now! I'm going crazy for you!

anxiously holding my breath till I hear.................

tam said...

Hey,

I've been reading for a few weeks now. You're awesome.

I want you to test because I kind of want to test (today is 12 dpo for me), and I'd feel better about doing it if you did it too.

But that's really selfish. I also, of course, kind of don't want to test, 'cause I'm scared out of my mind.

I still want you to test though. That's my vote.

Jill said...

Test because I said so ;)

Teenylee said...

Those are most adorable embabies EVER!

Aunt Becky said...

They are adorable. They sort of look like pizza, which makes me hungry.

And I say POAS. I happen to like First Response.

Io said...

I am knitting hats for them right now.
I want you to test because I am not patient. And really, that should be all that matters.

Blue said...

When you're on a rest month (like me), you have to live vicariously through other people's cycles! So please test!!!! The suspense is killing me - and I have everything crossed for you!! :-)

Tricia said...

I would test on Friday. Any longer and I might lose my mind. Good Luck!!! ******Baby dust*******

Kim a said...

TEST! TEST ! TEST! I am crossing my fingers and toes for you!!!

Betz said...

Don't POAS...It'll be worth the wait...eventhough it's gonna kill the rest of us to wait until Monday! GL girl! I've got all my fingers and toes crossed for ya!!

Katt said...

Gorgous embryos!!! I wish I had pictures of the ones that finally stuck in me.

I always POAS a day or two before the official beta. I needed to know going in to it where I stood. I found waiting for the time between the blood test and "the call" to be far too long and stressful. But thats me...you need to do what gives you the most peace. Sending lots and lots of positive thoughts your way!

BB and MTB said...

A negative hurts no matter what. I wish I could just take the darn thing for you. Maybe you can pee in a cup and DH can be in charge of the sample. Let him make the choice.

Anonymous said...

awwwwwwwwwww! they are soooo cute.TEST! They look just like their mommy! I love you, Best Wishes!
VAl

Jen said...

I vote to test. And call your doctor and tell them you may be going out of town this weekend and will be gone until Tuesday, so of course you need to move your beta to Friday. (Idea stolen from my friend Maria.)

They are beautiful embryos. They look very intelligent too.

Lost in Space said...

1. You have some real lookers there. I think they look smart too.

2. Fertiles don't even know what 13dpo means. They just have sex 14 days after their period and get pregnant. duh!

3. I hate the damn pee sticks with a passion, but am thinking about peeing on one before my beta for IVF#2 if my DH agrees. I'm torn.

4. The worst they could say is "no". I would call and ask.

5. Everything crossed for you.

Tiffanie said...

do it! ahahaha!

the Babychaser: said...

Having just learned I can test before the beta two cycles ago (I'm a bit slow on these things), I can tell you what I've learned: the ability to test allows you to control when you find out.

So picture this. For my last IVF cycle, I had crazy things happening at work the entire week before my beta, which was scheduled for a Saturday. You and someone else (sorry, I can't remember which other one of us was on the same cycle) tested early and both got BFNs. I realized that I couldn't do my job and cope with bad news at the same time, so I waited until Saturday morning to test. (Then I waited to look at the tests -- I'm totally not lying here -- until after I came home from the RE's, because I didn't want to be sobbing in the RE's office. Also, I feel like if I tell the nurse I tested they'll be mad because I cheated.)

This last cycle, on the other hand, my beta was scheduled for a workday, and I had a friend coming into town the very next day. So I tested earlier, over Memorial day weekend, so I could have some time to cope with the negative.

I guess for me it's all about controlling when I learn it's negative, so I'm not spending another day crying in my office, then trying to sneak out down the stairs so no one will see me. Not terribly professional, and something that happens a lot to me.

That all being said, if you're in a position to do so, TEST ALREADY! This is KILLING me!!!

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MamaSoon said...

I would test the morning of beta at the very least. i like to go in with a good idea of what is coming. I agree first response early sticks. what are your embies names?

Jill said...

Unfortunately, I'm a POAS whore. I can't stop doing them. I start at 8dp3dt and test until my beta. Good luck in whatever you decide! And crossing fingers and toes and everything else for a BFP for you!

annacyclopedia said...

I will abstain from voting on the test-or-not-test question, but I am hoping hoping HOPING for you and wishing you the best as you wait/test/whatever. Your embryos look fabulous - are those dimples I see?

Murgdan said...

I want you to test because today I tested and it was a BFN (ok, it was way early for me, but still)...so somebody needs a positive today! Besides...A)you gotta pee at some point (and lots from reading your last post) and B)you already have the sticks (I know you have them). So since A and B are in order...that leaves the obvious left to do.

Alison said...

Wow, I'm gonna go against all yer commentors and say no, do not test. I know you are already going crazy with suspense (I know I am) but pee sticks make girls crazy! At the very least wait till Friday.

Marie said...

I vote test. I am a total tester I have spent a bazillion on tests. I guess I just like to pee on things idk....

PlainsongGirl said...

I think if it were me I would POS...but this is coming from a person who as a child found out there was no Santa Claus because I found my hidden Christmas gifts that were from Santa... I am hoping that if you find you ++ befoe Santa comes:-)

Bekah said...

While the suspense is also killing me, I will die waiting with you. Be strong, grasshopper. Like someone else up there said, the hope for that bfp is worth holding on to until the last possible moment of definite clarity. And I am SO hoping that this is a bfp for you!

Anonymous said...

I say call your Dr. to see if you can get the Beta moved up!!! Also, Jill tells you to test...you might want to listen to her!
-Kristin

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

I say, test..cuz i think my DH won't be able to take me going loco on him with my incessant rambling!!!

BTW, I've tagged you in my blog..you're just too funny and cute!

Sending you some hugs...

hairyfarmerfamily said...

I'm all for peeing, myself. You go, girl.

Portia P said...

Hi - here via nacomleavmo.

I say don't test - but maybe i'm too late...? It still might be a teensy bit early.

I had 5 IVF's and never tested. On the first 4 i never got the chance as AF pitched up early. On the last one, my beta was day 12 after 3dt and i was so convinced it hadn't worked and so scared of disappointment i didn't test. It was positive.

Having said all of that, in favour of testing - puts you out of your misery, gives you a heads up before beta and just might be the best thing you ever did.

Good luck! I really feel for you. xx

Heather said...

The embies are gorgeous. I don't think I could wait for Monday. I'd be POASing immediately.

~Jess said...

I'm a POAS addict, so I say test. At least then you know before your beta...I have my fingers crossed for you!!

Here via NCLM

peesticksandstones said...

I've tried doing it both ways, and I think I'll always POAS before the beta now. Maybe wait until the morning of the beta, though. I just don't like that Nurse Call to have so much power over me -- it makes the day unbearable.

It's tricky for me, though, because 3 "positives" so far have no equalled baby. Which makes this whole thing about 10 times more confusing and frustrating!

seriously? said...

I would see if the doctor can move the beta up to Friday. I always be on sticks (but I have never had a scheduled beta)and usually the morning I get my period. I know I would test, but I'm not you (although you have a sick (as in good) sense of humor and sometimes I wish I was you.).

Anonymous said...

POAS! POAS! POAS!

Why? Because that's what I would do :)

Seriously though - I am sooooo pulling for you!! Whether you test or wait for beta - you will be in my thoughts!!!!

Hannah

Jendeis said...

The embies look adorable. Hope they are sticking it to the Wo-MAN. Or something like that.

I'd say don't POAS for as long as you can. Try not to do it until Sunday. You want something certain and what is something earlier was a false negative?

Amy said...

I would say to test...that way if it's a BFP you and your DH can celebrate Father's Day! If it's a BFN, you'll have time to digest it.

Whatever you decide, I'm thinking of you and heping for the best!

Anna said...

I'm 13dpo right now too, and while I am positively itching for some POAS action, I'm holding out until Father's Day (if AF stays away and my temps stay up) because, come on, how cute would that be? Crossing it all for that BFP!!

Malloryn said...

Those are some gorgeous embabies!

I'll refrain from the test/no test thing, and say ask your doctor if you can come in for the beta tomorrow. Make up a reason for being unable to come in on Monday... or Tuesday... and definitely not Wednesday either because that would drive us crazy! ;)

Anonymous said...

TEST! Why? Because I, like many others, want to know!!!

Thinking of you and hoping for a positive!!!

Ashley

Klynn said...

Delurking to add my $.02.

Ok, so if you test and it's negative, this is nothing definitive...it may still be too early, you still have the beta to look forward to.

Aaannnnddd, if you test and it's positive...well, there aren't that many false positives.

So you either get a "I dunno yet" shrug negative, or a "hell yeah" positive. What's bad about that?

Stephanie said...

It looks overwhelming already, but I also say TEST! Test today and when you call to tell them the results you can get your beta moved to tomorrow. So test immediately if you haven't already.

Tabatha said...

I'd test. But I can def. see why you wouldn't want to. It's a very hard decision. Here's hoping the weekend flies by and you can go get your beta and then the don't dawdle with the results!!

Mrs. Higrens said...

I have no position. I'm just hoping that Aunt Flo doesn't appear next week, for both of us!

Here's to velcro embryo's. Who are ever so pretty / handsome and brilliant, etc. (not that I would expect any less from you!)

Mel said...

I never test early, so I am going to vote wait!
If a beta can be done earlier than Monday, though, heck ya call them and ask! You have every right!
Can't wait to hear the news.
*hugs*

Leah in Austin, TX said...

YES, you need to test! I've been on this journey for 3 years and my best friend convinced me to test Saturday, 12 DPO. I knew it was going to be negative. I peed in the cup and she dipped the test. Before she put it on the counter she said, "You are pregnant!"...blah, blah, blah....SO, all of that to say!! Get it over with!!! Please!! I am glad I did. Plus, I got bloodwork a day sooner!! GO FOR IT GIRL!!!

Anonymous said...

Whenever you're ready to face a potential BFN, yet ready to celebrate a BFP, bust out those pee sticks. If you do First Response or Answer Early, then the test line starts turning pink about the same time as the control line...and at 13dpo, you're good to go today. If you feel like driving yourself nuts all weekend or postponing potential negative results, then by all means, wait. But at 13dpo, you're good to go. Whatever the test shows is likely quite accurate. And then if you get a positive and don't believe it, you can keep peeing on sticks all weekend so you can see them getting darker and darker....so much fun! Oh, and since Father's Day is this weekend, if you do have a positive, it's a great weekend to celebrate!

mintfree7 said...

I have done it both ways (waiting for the call from the RE's office NOT FUN). I say test! At least you will know what you are dealing with before your scheduled beta. Good Luck! I am about to get back on this circus train in July.

J. Nelson said...

I took the test on the 10th day, and in said "NOT PREGNANT". I was on a weekend trip with my husband and his parents. At first I thought it was a bad idea. But when I got my negitive BETA test back it didn't hurt so bad, because I already knew. Sure I was still hopeful, but I think It helped me in the long run. Plus I couldn't stand waiting any longer.

Do what feels right. :)

GP said...

Hey girl... OH the ever so arguable question... to POAS or NOT to POAS... HMMMMM... Back in our JSO days we used to satisfy that urge by going our side grabbing a "stick" or branch off the tree an peeing on it... not the same result BUT then you can say u POAS.. LOL... once you get to the IF stages POAS is a four letter word.. u want to BUT dont want to see that neg... I myself can NEVER hold back the urge.. my DH has banned me on almost every cycle.. HAHA for him cause i have my secret stash... that 530am mother nature call a few days before beta when i just cant take it any longer, i sneak off to the bathroom and lock my self in, JIC DH desides to wake up. every so quietly open the package and do my thing... then wait patiently (yah right) for those two pink lines to show up..... oh the agony!
JEN my advice if you are going to POAS WAIT til sunday or even monday morning... FOR ME it helped prepare me for what was to come.. good or bad .... (for me it was all bad) thats just me!
I amd hoping and praying (and i dont pray much but i will for u ;) ) that you get those two pink lines and a super high beta number on monday!!! i will be looking out for your update on monday! (((big hugs girl))) i am pulling for you!! we have been at this for almost three years! its gotta be our time now!! we have come a long way from JSO! ;)

Motel Manager said...

Eh, I always POAS. I need to know before I hear the official word from the nurse. But I admire people who can hold out.

Anonymous said...

Test....because then you can stop wondering and deal with the news, either good or bad. Either way, you're done wasting time thinking about something you could know right now! That's my thinking anyways :-)

Suzanne said...

Test, test, test!

Dreamer4agift said...

I can hardly stand to wait and hear the results!! I mean, seriously, you're killin' me here. I even made myself read line by line just in case you said you poas at the end of the post:-)

That being said, do what you want, it's your moment. I would at least call the dr. and see about moving the beta up. You're friend's right, you're the paying customer.

Can't wait to hear the results. BTW, those are some beautiful embies:-)

Paranoid said...

Test. Think of it this way -- if you're pregnant, then you get to find out that much sooner. If you're not, then you have some time to absorb it before a relative stranger delivers the news over the phone.

Good luck!

Lorrie said...

For the longest time, I never POAS before Beta day, only because seeing that blizzard of white became too painful. Last month, I couldn't take it, however, and cracked. When the call from the nurse came, it was so much better to know than not.

Keeping everything crossed for you, Jen! Hoping your embies have snuggled in for the long haul!

Amber said...

Test. The way I see it, if I get a BFN I can tell myself that it's too early, but I start getting the idea that things might not turn out well. When the BFNs keep coming I find I'm eased into the hysterical disappointment, rather than thrown into it. And if it's a BFP, well, the sooner I can obsess over the pregnancy the better!

GOOD LUCK!

andrea said...

i never told you how beatiful the embies are!!

that is all.

sarah23 said...

I would go ahead, because if it's a BFN, I'd rather find out in the privacy of my own home, rather than via a phone call (even if it comes from a nice nurse).

I'd also rather see a BFP while standing next to DH, rather than getting the news via a tensely-anticipated phone call.

Fingers crossed for you!!

emily said...

i vote you test too... i went to bed half an hour ago, i was all snuggled in and cozy when i realized i hadn't checked your blog today and i got too curious so i dragged myself out of bed... so clearly, my reasons are totally selfish. i am sending you so many baby thoughts!

anyway... on a more practical note, i say you test now because when i was taking those damn tests everyday for a week or more, the "it's obviously too early to test" excuse worked wonders when it was negative. and think of how good you will feel if it is positive... you can find out for yourself rather than hearing it from the doctor's office.

either way, good luck. i'm thinking of you and sending so many baby vibes your way!

Shanny said...

I'm a POAS addict so I vote test on Sunday so that way you are prepared either way by Monday. Then again you if took the afternoon off, you would still get the answer in private.... tough decision! On another note, those embryos are just adorable! lol

Anonymous said...

I am one who doesn't typically POAS. I think of all the money that I've spent on those things just to find something out that I will find out soon enough anyway. Either you are or you aren't, its not going to change between now and Monday, so I look at it as refusing to throw (more) money away b/c of IVF. AND I feel like a toughie for waiting it out. (small victory!) That said, the Father's Day comment above really threw me. That would be a strong temptation to test. Good luck, Jen. I'm afraid that you will leave us and am also so hopeful that you will.

sarah said...

Don't test. It may be too early, and you may get all upset for nothing.

alicia said...

I am so the same with the doc! I feel bad, or evil for telling them I disagree or want something different. I have to psych myself up for all my appointments and remind myself to say its my body, this is what I want! so hard.

test question...I am a waiter. I wait until AF is past due. I hate peeing on those sticks and watching my money get flushed down the toliet!

Stacy Woodruff said...

I vote for test. They are very cute little embryos. Do they have names? I vote for calling them Mork and Mindy.

MamaSoon said...

are you doing ok? you've been so quiet. hope you are well.