Friday, June 13, 2008

So Much to Report to the Internet!!

So many things are happening!

First: I got my letter from the Cleveland Clinic regarding my frozen embryos.

Two were frozen at cleavage stage (day 3)
Two were frozen at morula/compacting stage
Four were frozen at blastocyst stage
In case you misplaced your basic math skillz: 8 FROZEN EMBRYOS!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy with this number that I practically tore off my own face. Now we have 11 total ice ice babies, a number that makes me squee just thinking about it!

My body is freaking the fuck out right now.

My abs are tight, like I just did 100 crunches. And Internet, you and I both know that the most exercise I've gotten lately involves lifting a fork to my mouth and moving the new heft that is my bloated abdomen. Moo.

OHSS? Not getting better. Still looking pretty pregnant. Or fat, I guess. I'm pretty uncomfortable but coping with it. I don't have one single pair of pants that fit around my massive girth.

Cramps. I haz dem. Like my period is coming tomorrow.

My butt is killing me. I feel like someone kicked my ass, literally. With pointy toe shoes. And steel toes. And a bad attitude. I've actually decided to quit the progesterone in oil shots and switch to the suppositories.

WARNING: If you will be starting the PIO shots soon, do not read the next paragraph unless you want to be horrified and terrified by my tale of woe. Just skip one paragraph, and don't say I didn't warn you.

OK, so last week when Mark gave me a PIO shot on the right side, my entire buttcheek went numb. It was numb for a few days, then turned crazy tingly and tender, like a burn. A few days later, doing a shot on that same side, I got the worst cramp in my hip that I've ever had - it went all the way down my leg and I couldn't stand up. It cramped for about 5 minutes and then slowly eased up. So yeah, not subjecting myself to that anymore.

OK - safe to read again without getting all scurred...

Hmmm....let's see, what else happened? Um, I got to pick up my car from the shop, and was so glad to get rid of the rental car that smelled like dirty feet and wet dog.

I made delicious BBQ chicken on the grill...
I painted my toenails a very cheerful pink...
I read two books...
And this also happened...



A beautiful, big fat positive pregnancy test at 12 days past 3 day transfer.
It's been a good week, friends.

157 comments:

L. said...

WOOHOO! I just started reading your blog recently, but I am THRILLED for you! YAY!

Martha said...

Yeah!, that's great news on all fronts. Congratulations and a Big (Hug) on your BFP with a happy, healthy baby in 2009.

Teresa said...

HOLY Expletive a BFP!! That is amazing! Sending (((hugs))) and Good Luck....

Io said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
I just screamed out loud dude! FUCK YEAH! Whoo!!!

Io said...

YES!
WhOOT!
I had to chime in again. I am still celebrating.
Dude, tell that (those?) punk (punkS?!) to stick around for nine months unless they want me to KICK their ASS.
WHOOOOOOO!

Murgdan said...

WooooHooooo! YAY! I'm so happy for you!!!

Alison said...

I knew it, I knew it, I knew it and you DID NOT fake me out with "Cramps. I haz dem. Like my period is coming tomorrow." I knew it!!! OMG!!! I am crazy happy right now for you!

Jen said...

Yippee!!!!! Joyous dancing around my living room! Congratulations! Awesome!!!! Whooo hooooo!!!! Lots of other exclamations because I am just so happy!

Anonymous said...

Y A Y!!!!!!!!!!! I got chills and can't wait to help plan your shower!!!!!!! I'm so freakin happy for you if u need anything let me know. And have a girl or two cause i have a massive amount of really cute clothes waiting for you!!!!!! Congrats!!!!!!!! Tell Mark I said Congrats!!! Awww I can just see them now, they're going to look just like you!!!!!!!! I love you,,, Val

annacyclopedia said...

Wonderful! Fantastic! Amazing!

I totally needed some great news and this just exceeded all my hopes for the day. Congratulations on this fabulous news.

Anonymous said...

ya know, from here, that lines looks like twins....

congrats!

Anonymous said...

I also just started reading your blog a week ago. Looking at the stick, I could not be any happier for you--as if it's happening to me.
The very best of wishes and great health.
God Bless.
Anna

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to de-lurk to say CONGRATULATIONS!!! This is incredible news. Love your blog...

Anonymous said...

Oh Jen, I'm so happy for you! You SO deserve this! I've been checking your damn blog for two days waiting to see that!!

Aunt Becky said...

HOOORAY!

seriously? said...

OMG! I am SOOOOOOO happy for you. A BFP. I knew stalking would pay off, I am so happy for you!

Emily said...

YAY! I was so hoping this would be the entry today. I am so happy for you, I have tears in my eyes for you, your husband and family. Wishing you the absolute, very best, happiest and healthiest nine months!

alison said...

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! (My dogs came running to my assistance when I squealed at the test!!) I'm so. freaking. excited for you. Holy cow. Holy, holy cow. Way to go embie(s)!

alison said...

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! (My dogs came running to my assistance when I squealed at the test!!) I'm so. freaking. excited for you. Holy cow. Holy, holy cow. Way to go embie(s)!

Anonymous said...

OMG!
I knew it! I knew it!

I haven't been this happy since I saw my own :)

Congratulations and happy and healthy 9 months to you both!

Anonymous said...

I randomly read your blog because you are HYSTERICAL and I am SOOOOOO happy for you! That is JUST wonderful! WOO HOO!!!!!

Jill said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I don't think I've ever commented before, but I've been reading your blog for awhile because it is hysterical and I can relate to so much of it. I am so excited for you!!! Aren't those two lines the greatest sight ever??

Carolyn said...

Apparently your embryos are both beautiful and charming and very, very intelligent as well. (look how advanced at only 12 DPO, figuring out how to say "Hi Mom and Dad" to you two already) Congratulations, I hope you enjoy your pregnancy and the baby or babies to come. My son has turned my world upside down and inside out and I couldn't be happier about it; I wish the same for you and Mark. This blog will someday be a great gift to your kids so that they always know how very badly you wanted to have them in your life. :-) Carrie

suzy said...

Jen,
Congratulations, I had a great feeling it was going to work for you this time around. Just in time for fathers day!! glad you did'nt wait until monday , cuz I was dying to know!!! So happy for you!!
Suzy

PJ said...

yay!!! Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!

Jennifer said...

I'm a new reader, but I just have to add my CONGRATULATIONS!!! to the mix. What a wonderful way to end the week.

Jennifer

Anonymous said...

Yay!! Congratulations...great way to end the blog. You had us going!

Maggie (MandJpp) said...

OMG - Yay!!! Best blog news of the day! Even told my hubby about you!! See you on SAIF as I just got to make the move after IVF #2!!!!

Anonymous said...

Congrats! So excited for you and Mark! Kkay

Anonymous said...

O.M.G. Congrats!!!! That is so amazing and you TOTALLY deserve it!
So happy for you.

Jaci said...

Yeah! You did it! Look at that little light pink line! Congratulations! :)

soapchick said...

Congratulations. I'm sooooooooooooo happy for you!! Yeah!!!

Pepper said...

Weeeee! Congratulations!! Wishing you happy, healthy nine months and happy, healthy baby.

Tricia said...

NO FREAKING WAY!!!!!!!!! Congrats mamma!!!!! That is just amazing!!!

Anonymous said...

Yay!! I'm so excited. I did a little dance in my living room for you.

Emily (Apron Strings) said...

Can I get a "Woot woot!"? Yesh .... sooo excited for you!!

thepromiseofourlove said...

Awesome!!! Congrats :)

Megs said...

Yay!!!!! Congratulations!!! So excited to hear this!! Ive been reading your blog for the past week or so and as everyone else has said you are hilarious!!! I think every blog I have read has made me laugh at some point. So congratulations!

Monica said...

Congrats!!! Yea for a BFP!!! When you go through so many pregnancy test you start to wonder if that magic line will ever show up!!! Happy 9 months to you

Randi said...

OMG!!!! My heart just went in my stomach and tears just keep flowing. I've been logging on at least two times a day to check for your new blogs! I thought I was going to have to wait until Monday for this AWESOME NEWS!!! I'm soooo excited for you guys!

Betz said...

What a beautiful sight! CONGRATS!!!

mrsblondies said...

Congrats! I don't think I've commented before but I read this and your Redbook. I'm glad that the Redbook IF blog lucky seems to have worked for you.

Chelle said...

awesome!! Many many congrats to you!

BB and MTB said...

Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leah said...

YAY! Congratulations a thousand times over!!

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As your creative director of Infertile Whore, I'm giving you a huge huge hug and kiss! And you can take a break from Infertile Whore for a while!

Enjoy your new experience and new journey!!

with much love
Pam

Blue said...

This is just the best news! I've been checking your blog all week like a mad thing just waiting for the results! HUGE congrats - just so thrilled for you! Totally awesome!!!

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

OMG OMG OMG!!! I have been waiting for this post all week!! (I knew you wouldn't wait, lol!)

Just one question... why did you wait so long to just relax and get pregnant? :P

I'm so freaking excited for you. Go rub your pee stick on your nosy neighbor's face, now!

shawna said...

I am so happy for you!! I can't wait to hear your take on pregnancy. H&H 9 months!

Jess said...

Jen that is fantastic!!! Congrats on your BFP and I wish you 9 happy and healthy months!!! Wooohooo!

Bev said...

You BEYOTCH! You made me read to the end of the post thinking...crap, she's got AF cramps. I am SO FREAKING excited for you "SQUUUEEEEEEE". Huge Hugs!!!

Shanny said...

OMG Yay!! I'm so happy for you Jen. Happy and healthy 9 months to you, congratulations!!!!

Jendeis said...

How could you not have put that news first!!!! I'm tearing off my own face in joy!!

kate said...

Coming out of lurking mode to say - Holy crap!! Congrats and I wish you the happiest and healthiest 9 months!!!!

Holli said...

I am not TTC, but I read your blog (almost) daily. I have to tell you, it's one of my favorites. I am so happy for you right now. I had a feeling...

I'm so happy for you, I feel like it's happening to me!!! :)

Holli

Leah in Austin, TX said...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I am sooooooooooooo gald you tested! I got my positive at 12 DPO last Saturday. I have goose bumps for you!! May we both have successful, uneventful pregnancies!! I am so happy for you. Holy Cow!!! Yes!!!

Shila said...

YAY Jen! I am so exited for you and Mark! I wish you guys a wonderful 9 months!

P.S.- I can't wait to read your funny pregnancy blogging!!!!

K-Dot said...

De-lurking to say...
WooooHooooo!

Hayley said...

OMG!!! I have tears in my eyes, and I dont even know you!!! A big, fat congratulations to you and Mark, you deserve this so much. Please dont stop blogging, I cant wait to hear your take on pregnancy symptoms!!!

Anonymous said...

Jen, I am so happy for you!!! I read your blogs religiously. You were hiliarious in college and have only gotten better with time. When I read this tonight, I cried. You so deserve this. CONGRATULATIONS!!! :)

Kristen

liina said...

OMG! Great news! I KNEW you were leaving it until the end of the post! :)

JamieD said...

Woo-hoo!! Congratulations!!

Kate said...

Wonderful news! Congratulations to you both!!

Betty Boop said...

Congratulations!! I am another new reader of your blog.. your posts give me a good laugh!

DawnsRecipes said...

Holy $hit! Congratulations, Jen! Wow...I think I'm almost as excited as I'll be seeing my own BFP. =) Seriously, though...you've given me a lot of hope. I was reading your blog over the last couple of cycles, knowing I'll be going thru the same thing very soon. It gives me hope to see a success story. Thank you!

the Babychaser: said...

Beautiful. Just fucking beautiful. I'm so happy for you.

I had lots of other things to say, but that last comment has driven them out of my mind.

Congrats, honey. You really deserve it.

Anonymous said...

I got chills reading your post. I couldn't be any happier for you. Congratulations!!!

MamaSoon said...

LOL! This is fantastic. You have siblings on ice and a bun in the oven. Very happy for you. Congrats. When is the official beta?

And you commented about 1%, our clinic didn't say anything except 1% morph meant icsi. Looks like it won't matter for you. You rocked it!

Aren't you glad you just relaxed? LOL!

calliope said...

holy SHIT!!!!!!
I am so behind on blog reading- but I had a feeling I should stop over to your neck of the woods.

WOO HOOO!
Cartwheeeeel!!

Stacia said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Betz & this cross are buddies of mine & directed me to your blog a while back. I feel like I know you now!! Congratulations!!! I'm so happy for you! Have an absolutely phenomenal 9m!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations!!!

Suzanne said...

OH MY GOD!
Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Katie said...

Yippee-ey-ooo!!! What a nice looking line!!!!! Good luck at the beta on Monday! Hope Sally gets to tell ya.

Jodi said...

Your story is inspirational to a lot of women. I just thougth I'd let you know that. Not only is it great that you got your BFP, but you also have 8 little ones chilling in a freezer for your future use. Sorry about the PIO shots...I had to do them for the first 10 weeks after my successful IVF. I'm 21 weeks pregnant now and doing great...hope to see the same for you. Congratulations!

andrea said...

1'll say it again, just cuz i can - congrats! that line just keeps getting darker!!

Melissa and Peter said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!

Fert Fighter said...

HELL YEAH JENN! Congrats to both of you, I am so happy for you guys!!!

Lorrie said...

I can't believe you waited till the end to tell us!!!!! I am SOOOOOO happy for you!! A million congratulations.

Sully said...

AAAAH! So exciting! Congratulations and here's to a nice fat beta! :)

Lost in Space said...

Congrats, Jen!!! I am so freakin' happy for you!! Can't wait to hear that awesome beta tomorrow too.

Mombi said...

Congratulations, Jen and Mark! I am so freaking happy for you guys that I can't even begin to express it. You guys are going to be the best parents ever... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, MARK!!!

KellyF said...

YAY FOR JEN AND MARK!

Steph said...

Congratulations! I have read your blog for the last two weeks and I am so happy for you!! I did IVF in October and I am due in 5 weeks with a little girl. You will love being pregnant! Good luck with your beta! I hope it's high!!

Infertile Friend said...

That made me jump and scream out loud for you!! Good luck!!

And can I just say . . . oh my at how many readers and comments you have!! Whoo hoo to that too.

I'm so happy for you and your hubby!

casicola said...

i barley have time to read blogs but I have been coming almost daily to see this AMAZING news....Congrats..its about damn time....Im sosooso happy for you and you sore ass...isnt it worth it? yayayayyayayay for you guys.

xoxo

Tabatha said...

woohoo! congrats! and shame on you for making us wait till the END.

Anonymous said...

I love reading your blog.
Congratulations!!
-Molly

sarah23 said...

OMG!! I can't believe you slipped that in at the bottom of the post! That is a gorgeous line!!!

I understand ya about the OHSS, believe me. UGHH!!

I'm SO SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!

Jill said...

Wow!! Congrats Jen! I'm so happy for you, hon! I hope you have a wonderful 9 months ahead! Really, really happy for you!

Kelly said...

YAY! I am so thrilled for you!!! I read your blog everyday and have been keeping my fingers crossed for you all weekend. I just got my bfp a week ago after 13 cycles and IVF #1. What a wonderful way to celebrate fathers day.

Anonymous said...

The most beautiful pee stick I've seen!! Yahoo!!!!

hairyfarmerfamily said...

That's wonderful news, really pleased for you!

Nit said...

Hola from NCLM! I love your blog!!

I love how you saved the best for last!!! Congrats on your BFP!!!

And 8 embryos is pretty durn good news, too.

Take care & I wish you a happy & healthy 9 months.

I look forward to following your journey :)

J. Nelson said...

Holy crap does that say 91 comments? Miss popular or what! Holy shit does that read, count them, 2 lines. How cool is this!

Waiting for the BETA!

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for a bit, and just wanted to add my congrats and best wishes to the others! I am very excited for you!!

JenM said...

Okay, so after 91 posts, do you really need mine? But - WHOO HOO!!!! I am SO excited for you, and that is a fabulous little line you have there. I can't wait to hear your beta numbers, and to watch you get fat :-)

Malloryn said...

OMG!!! I am soooo happy for you! Congrats on the sticky one, and all the ones you were able to freeze. You are a rock star!

Mrs. Higrens said...

Is there a more beautiful sight than 2 pink lines? I think not!

Yay for sticky embryo's!

Marie said...

That is so freaking, fantastic!!!!! I had a funny feeling as I was reading and I jumped back a little when I seen. I am so happy for you.

Dreamer4agift said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean, I'm on vaca, in Florida, and as soon as we had a chance to check email, I came to your blog to see if you tested and I said "holy shit!" right out loud. My husband was concerned but when I told him, he said that was great:)

Congratulations! I can't wait to see the beta results. I'm sorry about the OHSS. While I had it my stomach muscles felt like I'd done tons of crunches, as well. Totally sucked........but man on man on man, I am just SOOOOOO unbelievably happy for you!

Michelle said...

De-lurking to say congratulations! I'm very happy for you!

Juicy said...

What a wonderful day! Congrats on the BFP, I hope to get one soon myself. :)

Also, a big whoo-hoo for the ones that made it to freeze. You're going to have to have a huge family!! ha ha.

(here from NCLM)

Dreams Come True said...

OMG! Congratulations!! That's SO awesome!!!!!!

Kim said...

OMG! Congrats! Just throw it casually in at the end of the post to drive us nuts! lol NCLM

Bec said...

Oh my goodness hon - that is just awesome!!!!! Am hoping that your OHSS gets better soon, I know how that can kick your ass. Congratulations!!!! :D

Anonymous said...

delurking to add my congratulations to the mix!!!

Veronica said...

Delurking to say I burst into tears when I saw your positive result (in a good way).

Congratulations!

Julia said...

So, so happy for you!! (And your little kidsicles, too!) Great news--made my day! Gotta get a paper towel now. I soaked my keyboard with happy tears!!! :)

Deb said...

Congrats!! That is the best news-here's to a happy and healthy 9 months for you all. I'll tip the wine you tip the juice lil Miss Preggers!

Anonymous said...

OMG - CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I'm so thrilled for you - this just made my day. Details, details, details about the testing, please!!

Anonymous said...

CONGRATS, Jen!!! I am so excited for you and Mark.

Tiffanie said...

congrats my friend! you guys soooo deserve this!

C said...

I suspected at the OHSS part... I had a mild case myself the month of my BFP!

CONGRATULATIONS!!! What a fabulous Father's Day gift for hubby. :D

DC said...

CONGRATULATIONS!! This is amazing news. OK, I'm officially adding you to my blogroll (success stories section, of course!). :)

Anonymous said...

I'm a lurker. I rally never leave comments but today when I saw your BFP, I cried. So happy just to see those two lines!

Heather said...

WOO HOO!! Congratulations!!!

Kymberli said...

Beautiful test...I hope for a beautiful beta tomorrow. Congratulations!

nancy said...

Way to throw us at the end! Sheesh girl!!!

Congrats!!!

Annegirrl said...

Congratulations to most awesome relaxer and future mom and dad! It couldn't have come at a better time.

Maria said...

I'm a new reader of your blog and new to this "infertility" world, and I couldn't be more happy for you! There is hope!! Congratulations!!

LanY said...

Yaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you and Mark. I hope you have a VERY strong beta tomorrow!

Kristin said...

Congrats! This is so awesome for the both of you! You guys deserve this more than anyone!

Christine said...

I've never been more excited for anyone else before. Congrats to you and your DH.

Lisa said...

OMG OMG OMG! I was thinking about you over the weekend when I was fighting the "to test or not to test" demons. I am SO THRILLED FOR YOU! Now, come back and report to us some fabulous beta numbers this afternoon! :-)

Anonymous said...

I'm so excited for you!!! You'd think that was my test or something, i can't wipe the smile off my face!! Congratulations..you're going to be a mom!

Deborah said...

Ok, so do you need one more-Wow! I had to add my two cents. This is great news-Congrats!!

Jill said...

I said it before, and I'll say it again. I am so happy for you! Every time I think about it, I get tears in my eyes.

Mel said...

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!
Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amy said...

Yea! Congratulations!

Reesa said...

Delurking to say congratulations! I'm so happy and excited for you!

Mombi said...

I'm on pins and needles to hear how your beta goes today! I can't wait for even more good news!

Jen J said...

HOORAY!

Congratulations on your BFP! I'm a new reader, but a faithful one and I'm sooo excited for you!

Super sticky baby dust and best wishes for a Happy & Healthy 9 months to you!

Kim F. said...

Congrats!! :)

poppy.f.seed said...

you sneaky thing, leaving it to the end. Awesome news! Stick baby(ies) stick!!!

Anonymous said...

Amazing, wonderful news for you and your husband. I swear I almost cried when I saw the photo!!! Congrats, you are giving us hope!!

SAHW said...

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, I'm sooo excited for you! I haven't commented too much on your blog, but I've been following your story here and at Red Book. I'm soooo thrilled for you guys!!!

Heather said...

Congratulations!!!!!! I got so excited when I saw the pic with the second line!

Heather said...

Congrats! I go so excited when I saw the pic with that second line!

The Town Criers said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

GP said...

JEN R U F-ing kidding me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

THATS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH I CANT WAIT TO HERE YOUR huGE BETA NUMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cONGRATS GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!!! can u tell.....

YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amber said...

That is one of the Biggest Fattest (Phattest?) Positives I've ever seen! Congrats!

Julie said...

Hahahahahaha, AWESOME.

Congratulations!

Kristen said...

Beautiful BFP, if I do say so myself. Congrats darlin'!

Anonymous said...

YEAH!!! i cried instantly tears of joy and happiness for you! congratulations!!!!!

Motel Manager said...

Holy SHIT! That is amazing!!!

(PS: Are we allowed to curse on your blog?)

Stacy Woodruff said...

Yay! Congrats! Woo hoo! That is so awesome!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations.Can't wait to hear your Beta number

Kristine said...

Whoohooo!! What beautiful lines!!!

Takes me right back to the first time I saw those two beautiful lines.

Congrats!

hopefaithlove said...

CONGRATSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

theclam said...

Congratulations!!! That is a dream come true I'm sure :)

Anonymous said...

I have been following your story for a long time and this post had tears in my eyes. Congrats!

Chelle said...

Congratulations! I am so happy for you!

womb for improvement said...

Just found your blog, and looks like I came in at the right time, congratulations! Now going to go back and read the lead up!

InfertileMadWoman said...

AWESOME... DeLurking to wish you Congrats, and a happy and healthy 9 months!!!

Lauren.Furrer said...

AWESOME!!!!!

Nerwak said...

I'm delurking to say congratulations!!!

alicia said...

Holy crap!!! you get sick for a week and stop reading ppl's blogs and miss the greatest things EVER!!!! AHHHHHH so thrilled for you!