Words I never thought I would mumble…
First OB appointment? More like disappointment.
I have been seeing this doctor for my run of the mill vagina issues (pap, urinary tract infections, etc) for about 5 years now, and I absolutely loved him. He was always very nice, very willing to explain things when I asked questions, blah blah blah. So it was an easy choice for me to stay with him, even though it's 45 minutes from home and about the same from Mark's work.
Our appointment was at 4:00 on Thursday. At 5:00, after we watched 6 people come and go, I went to the desk to make sure I was on the list. "Yes, you're on the list, we are behind. What are we seeing you for, anyway?"
*Bangs head on glass partition; takes tissue out of purse to wipe forehead grease mark off glass*
"Well, this will be my first pregnancy visit." Duh.
"And we're seeing you for….?"
"Um, I am pregnant. After IVF. I've had two blood tests and an ultrasound to confirm viability. So you tell me what you're seeing me for."
"Hmph. OK, well we'll call you back soon."
Another 20 minutes later, we head back to a teeny tiny broom closet with an exam table and a Doppler. Now, I know that I should not be filled with absolute dread at the thought of a Doppler. I know that I should be fine with the fact that at 8 weeks, it's nearly impossible to detect a heartbeat with a Doppler. I should be prepared for the fact that the nurse is going to have to search around and we may or may not find the heartbeat.
I should, but I am TOTALLY NOT OK WITH THAT. Despite my requests for just an ultrasound, we still had to waste 10 minutes with the Doppler. Finding no heartbeat, except the pounding of mine, practically having a heart attack because OMG THEY CAN'T FIND THE HEARTBEAT! WOE! My cupcake hath rotted and died!
So I'm laying on the table, clenching my fists, curling my toes, and trying to breathe while holding in the urge to scream:
JUST GET IN MY VAGINA ALREADY!
Finally, at about 5:30, we meet with the doctor who will do our ultrasound. He is so rude – nothing like he has been for the past 5 years! He came in the room and didn't introduce himself to Mark, and he pretty much talked directly to me the entire time. I asked him questions and got short, bullshit answers. I asked what he generally does during the entire pregnancy as far as visits go; he says he doesn't get into that on the first visit and he will tell me in two weeks! WTF? We were rushed through the entire appointment, not to mention that nobody apologized for the hour and 20 minute wait! Assholes.
We did get our ultrasound, but it was not internal so we couldn't really hear the heartbeat. He did find it though, and instead of being a baby embryo Mommy and forgetting, I did manage to get the heart rate: 162. No measurement – he just asked me what my due date was and wrote it down.
I don't know. I was so excited for my first OB appointment, and I left there completely disappointed. I wanted to run back to the safety of the RE office, where they understand everything we've been through to get here. It should have been a happy visit, and I just left there all pissed off and nauseous because I hadn't eaten in about 4 hours by the time we got home.
We're looking at other OBs right now.
GAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! Feed me – but don't try to eat meat, or I will eat your left lung….mwahahah!
Am now vegetarian. Had mashed potatoes for dinner last night. Carbs. All carbs, all the time.
Send Boca Burgers and a case of Tums ASAP.